I got job once,
Do I go on? Or did you just tell I didn’t like it
I got a call one day
And with it, sealed my fate in white collar world
I was desperate and broke
And so any offer was on the table
I had just quit school
The naïve young woman I was thought
The universe would sing chorus of my triumph
Instead life hit like a sledge hammer
Not loud like I told you so. But loud let me show how so.
Life had been traced for me with centuries of failures before me
And so, you can imagine I wasn’t winning for myself
It wasn’t mistake, don’t get me wrong
I walked away from a possibility of ever looking back
And knowing i had a choice
But transitions are cruel
They come to you, knowing it will be your most tiring climb
And slowly my delusion hit me, I didn’t chose for things to come easy
But rather to know that any direction had a price
I sat every day in that black chair, signing and stamping away my creativity
For a solace of a paycheck
The solitude that my body will never catch up to my mind
Was such a loud cry
Every day I saw rudeness in all colors
And gave it such a canvas of a beautiful smiles
The wrenching feeling that time was slipping away, was all I could think
For my pain wanted no other perceptive
I handed out a summary of my experience to anyone who would ask
And they all seemed to want to tell just one thing
I didn’t have what they were looking for
And each time then would lead to my next time after
I was a lioness that had forgotten it could once roar
For I knew I was the hunted now
Each day tackled all my principles to the ground
To confront who was I without my writing?
Did each day take away a piece of myself?
I was doing everyone proud
At the cost of just being another one alive
And one day just another to die
Never a figure that changed the norm in a period of scorn.
UBB
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