MY DIVERGENCE (POEM)

I have a divergent mind

That should sum it up right?

Who you think I'm

But it doesn't

Not even a fraction of it

It just means I feel deeply

And so I have to know my halts

For spiraling can be constant

My space is my stand

Just so your world won't engulf mine

My big is nothing to y'all

But I'm learning to live with that

You won't hear "are you okay" from me

But I will cook for you every night

I will remember what you wore the first time we met

I will walk in your shoes, as mine collects dust

I will never walk away first, but once I do it's forever

Heartless you say? No, It's survival

For I see worlds you will never see

And If I don't let go, they shall collide

I'm not sorry

Your typical was a language I loved to learn

But my writing was never what I had to sit in a class for

It's my advocacy and compass

A place to make it all about me for once

For my head can't allow it

As my mornings are filled with my worries for others.

To know that my middle ground is your far end

My perimeters seem like walls to y'all

I'm at my last straw

For who I'm, you sum it up in a diagnosis

And so my loud and clear is in these words

But even that you won't be able to see it.

UBB

FIRST BORN (POEM)

I grew up with you all

Many moons later and you came along

And somehow life became this urgency to fit in

Family somehow, and yet my color is a different font

All these years, trying to laugh at your jokes

and yet mine are never that funny to you

Lately, it no longer bothers me though

For my table is set for someone else

And that's okay

I will serve yours gracefully

Even if I'm never offered a sit

Maybe our tales were always meant to be shared and never survived together

Your calls will always be answered

For my birth happened just so I could see yours

For my skin to bear the signs of time

Just so yours won't wither

I love you to a degree you will never get

Just so you could love yourselves

Conceived to pay a tax

Of my arrival in this world

My table will always have those extra sits

You're welcome when you realize

I never sat at yours.

When that gun fires to announce the start of our race

Don't mistake the head start i give you

For winning isn't the endgame

But running with my eyes fixed at your backs

Is my God given trophy.

UBB

CROSS WORDS (POEM)

I expressed myself

And all you saw were my lips moving

Never the words that came out

I hugged you

I held your hand

And all that remains now is the space

That none of us want to cross over

I hold no grudge

Just that my truth was never meant for a human soul

I'm back where I began

On a piece of paper writing

For that is when my words are naked and bare

My world is awake now

Taking in that I'm different now

But still who I used to be

For who I'm inside can come out now

With no fear that I will give myself secondhand clothes

That my mind is lit

With the realization that my arm will always stretch out

For that invisible someone

For I can't help but see them

I never asked for it

For that aching need for inclusivity

That my steps will always halt midway...

For that plead

Who I'm now hurts you

And who you're now is but a distant land

Poetry is how loud I'm and can be

For my verbality is my silence

My whole life was a loud voice

And that is how you only want to hear me

And so this finality was inevitable

Back to my cross words now

as their complexity is my comfort

UBB