I was told (POEM)

I was told

Five years ago, I said I was told

Of how you shall waltz in my life

I remember that walk, the final minute that sealed my fate to yours

I can see it, under the scorching sun as I made my way home

An entire day of seeing you, and yet thought you were but a passing train

Never to halt at my platform

The almighty spoke, and I turned numb

Life had made me believe a lie

To embrace the idea that love was never meant for me

Love took everything from me

In the past it came like a beast with gifts

A slap followed with an embrace

I was eighteen when I decided a man had no place in my life

It was never personal, it was just one last attempt

To salvage my dignity, my self-respect had been trumped on

And so my pride stood tall, for that was all I had

Years have gone by, growth came to me too slow

But stayed like beloved guest. I still don’t know what shall be

My spirit hums to the tune of yours

And yet we sat next to each other as you avoided my gaze.

I want you on the occasion it doesn’t hurt

You are not some consolation prize, for that I submit to heaven

To become a person that will receive your love and not push it away

Just so when you ask me my forever, I will give it without looking back

I know you are not a ghost from the past, but my mind is but time a traveling machine

That holds no space for the present.

BY UBB

NOT THE PICTURE THOUGH

DEDICATED TO IRR