Dear R. (Poem)

I hold my pen now

As i can't hold your hand yet

To tell myself what i can't tell you yet

I can count on my fingers

The words we've exchanged

The non-significant times to the world but my own

Where my barriers shook, second guessing my persona

Wanting to be someone else, maybe one who can catch your eye.

Wondering how high are the stakes to win you over or lose myself over you.

You disrupted my world the very moment my eyes landed on you

You questioned my very ways of living by just existing

You've become such a big part of my thoughts,

I sometimes wonder, if i dwell in yours as well?

Every inch of who you are fascinates me

From the move of your hands to the shuffle of your feet

You scare me as much as you fascinate me

Conflicted to run away or get to you

Torn between the urge to know you or behold you from afar

I have lived so many lives, been so many people

I wonder who do i offer to you?

And would you take me if I did?

So, many questions for answers yet to come

To live in the present for a future yet to be

My heart soars at a glimpse of you

To feel so many things for a life not yet intertwined with mine

to reach out for an mirage that's fading

for a question that burns my lips

can we be? can we truly be ever be R?

By UBB

P.S: The picture is of one my favorite movies called "Warm bodies" the zombie character is called R. but the poem is dedicated to another person i do call R.

The Loner (POEM)

I have been two people my whole life

One I show the world and the other I keep to myself

For only I can understand her

She is this incredible human being that is self sufficient and assured

She had no one but her to elevate and affirm her

With these four arms and legs I walked and lived

With only split seconds to decide whom I will show

The loner in me just loves that solitude that life has offered

But the other sometimes just craves that simple caress from another

As my other face just cringes at the other of what I could let go

An entire universe of mine constructed by my only words and actions

That stands on the hinges of my every stumbling steps

Reaching out to a certain life means to erase half of me

I want both. The ecstasy of companionship and the amazing solo ride

I held back to what everybody called fulfillment

For I know not what my heart could prompt me to do

I am a loner and fate was never generous to show me what I was missing out

And so, I took the wheel and drove into the sun set

It is childish to put a period on what The Omni never deemed it to be

But for my sake I chose her, for she is what I have ever known

She is the only I knew who could handle and bare

For people only had opinions but she had consolation

I am sorry to the Better that could have smiled to someone else

But instead chose to have this conversation with herself

My apologies, Mr. no one that I am depriving you of a skipping heart

I am selfish and learned the hard way to be

I am on the road now

Towards what? I don’t know, but alone I am certain

I chose the shore than the ever-growing horizon

Every day is a daily reminder of that one question… if I chose right?

But I can only be certain that for now, I chose me.

By UBB

A Laugh With The Elephant (POEM)

You see this elephant

It’s all you see, right

It fills your room

Its trumpet wrapped around your neck

That You can’t breathe

Its hooves make the noise of your own demise

That big elephant that got bigger with each lie

So big, it reminds you of how small you are everyday

That elephant that doesn’t want you dead

But wants you alive to suffer more

Can I tell you that you shall laugh with it someday?

Over a cup coffee, you shall look back to that old enemy

That became a friend

You shall know that elephant my dear friend, wanted you to live

More than the living enemy

You shall raise your glasses together, for that elephant that turned mouse.

UBB